Wish

First time when i saw this women, a great feeling comes to me like a thunder from heaven. She makes my eye full with her while she walked and talk. I don't know what the feeling is about but i thought to myself, its just a feeling. Everyday. the feeling getting bigger.It's makes my heart feel trouble and burden. Each second,she cross my mind and i say "hey,please stop it,just a feeling..".when she said my name, my heart was beating faster,faster,faster. I will smile when she called up my name and childish inside me ,i just show it to her only,only. i do my best when i in front ,it's like bet my soul to get this woman's heart and attention. It's nearly Christmas time and she want something. I search for it with whole my energy and i found. i meet her and give to her. She Smile... and my heart is explodes.I want she smile always ,i don't want her feel lonely. When the time is come, I'm feel dead in myself. can i meet this lovely women again...i love a women not a girl.. her and i is very far away..but it's not my path for this time, I'm have a long journey for seeking the wisdom..you may say i didn't stick to promises..yes, i do..but my time is not now yet. I believe Wisdom is far more important,in searching the true,justice, and faith. This is my believe but if the time cross again, i will never let her go.