Wish

last Monday, she said she will meet me here. i feel calm when she willing to meet me. but unexpected thing happens that day, my senior got fever and he asked me to send me to hospital.

in that time , i praying hard so that our relationship can still survive. around 4 pm, i accompanied my senior to hospital. As usual, the hospital full of people. i thought my senior just meet doctor, after that take medicine. then he said the doctor want to do blood test and take his blood and get NaCl for an hour. i just know my senior got pacemaker in his heart. i was like 'oh man....that really out of calculation"

i was just unexpected, i looked at my watch. shit! it's 6.30pm..fuck me why this thing happens on this critical moment..shit shit shit...i wassap to her to wait me at 8pm. she reply she willing to wait me.

i really hopefully after 7.30 pm can go out already but shit, need to meet doctor again for result. it's already past 8pm, i really sorry. i can't meet your because top management see through this thing. if they know i decide to go out and meet you instead accompany my senior, i will get bad name in company.

a very hard choices for me. i really want to meet her face.

i just silent for the remaining day. after back to home, i go to swimming pool.

sorry e. if u understand my situation that time.