Bad temper

True to inform, i have bad temper since the break up. I never feel peace within myself. Kinda temper like Gordon Ramsay. Suddenly i raise my standard in work. My work place is hell to everyone. I learn Ramsay take 1 hour everyday to do meditation. I guess i need to do it in order to get myself back to stability emotion.

Theres things i cut during this period, i means i commit myself to work , strict to myself not search relationship for these 2-3 years. To do good things for others so that i can forgive myself.

And to raise my standard. I think this the 1st time i really commit to build myself back to top performance. I feel i can do everything.

To think back ago, i have uncontrollable emotional within myself. I do what my heart and emotion want and doesnt think the consequences after that. But i wouldnt apologize for feeling like that.

I asked my friends how am i back then. They told me i cant think much on myself. I think its true.

The way i see now i to rebuild myself not for fast time but to create character of mine. To be outspoken and able to express myself to others.

I know and believe God with me always. Everythings happen for reason.