Clear yet?

Good meditation give me new breath. Perhaps its give me new insight how things happens. Back then my mind was clouded and much follow the emotion i have. I failed to get the clue what she want and her heart. Only if i in good mind and not lead by emotion , give space that she want as i be patient too at that time. Maybe, she still here right beside me. As i too lead by deep angry emotion, i said hurt things to her. I didnt think those words after i spilled it out. To regret it now its too late. I in puzzle on the puzzle i can react so powerful emotion that time. Even its make me think when she start stop love me and let me like this. Or she played me from the beginning.  Its destroy my confidence to build any relationship with others after that. I cant trust those girls again. With quiet heart, deep inside. Although she dont want talk with me again. I pray to God to take care of her and family. Hopefully she be blessed ,happy always and successful with her life. Amen. Anyway for me, pray also same goes to me. There is plenty of fish btw and i wonder the next adventure i walk through now. I know God also by my side in my heart.