the fruit of struggle

well, after one year struggle within myself. i comes to this conclusion, no, few months ago. i weak inside but i need to grow strong and look strong at least. i want to break this cycle, i want to show to others there is ray of hope even its small.

my friend called me he got heart break. i advise him...tell him my story..and advise don't do my mistakes. respect the girl you love. thats make a man. i guess im not...since i talk the rude way to my ex.

but every story have lessons. i know where i want to go but still this is me, i just change my character.

to my friend, i told him you gotta be strong and move on. there's lots of fishes in the world. this world is colorful. i want to taste all, i do already and its a sin...sometimes thru sins, we ought to realise what we done is wrong but i never regret to choose that path. to keep wonder among people..seeking the meaning of life...

seeing the girl, no a woman i like suddenly, i see the weaknesses inside me, what i gotta do and worth to deserve this woman. she's too shiny and brilliant for me...but i want strive forward to seeking my self. maybe time not allow, time and life, please be good to me..