I think i'm in war

Have you ever been in helpless situation, you try and struggle anything at over your limit and strength to fix things back. at the end everything is broken..so sad right...at the end, u have to put this all to the end. the pull stop. rethink back what's mistakes going out back there, what's the lesson from there. how this makes we stronger...we make a plan, devise a life plan, an A plan and its back-up plans.

back then, i live for future, worry of the future..because my past is really bad. i'm unfortunate person who start from negative situation.

i want a good future for myself. a family...a house..a life that i dream..but all that's shattered.

life really got me and pushed me to very end one point...i lose something precious to me

Makes me wonder what is this...what is this meaning of life exactly God..

its hard to wake-up from that slumber situation..i'm sucked and not creative at everything..when this things happens to me...since when?

Comfort zone is no longer a place to me..i went out , take a walk, a long walk, a hard walk, a journey that makes me tougher..i start to put my standard higher..i push my mental strength and push my body.. i don't care about rest..i made myself a working horse or workaholic .

i would not stop till i get what i want..but what i want actually? what i know i make all in top performance, just go through this road and see where it the end.

How deep and big my potential...i wouldn't stop till i feel something that stop me.