be a man like a mountain?

after i read that book, i feel i half bad half good man..i feel terrible do sort of things to her..it's my way how to love a woman was wrong itself..but how come i become blind after 4 years of relationship..perhap things were change..people do change..i tried to save the relationship but it's beyond out of my control..

perhap there is something strange within me...never the less..i try to figure it out..